Psalm 40: When I am feeling down, which happens often during the holidays. Missing family, plus I have a very hard time handling the crowds during normal shopping times. During the holidays I find shopping extremely stressful. I turn to the Psalms. Sometimes I just have to walk out leaving my purchases behind. Otherwise things such as yesterday happen. Yesterday, I was feeling the stress of people rushing around getting items for their holiday meal. People just like me who just wanted to get their purchases and get out. The other type of shopper was there as well. The type that puts the edge on my nerves, their cart sits sideways or diagonally across the aisle, while they search for the item they only purchase for special occasions. Or they are spread across the aisle speaking to the person that they have not seen for some time. Or the employee who has stuff spread half way across the aisle rearranging a display. I tell these people excuse me, most oblige; there are ones however, that give you the look that says “who the *&(*^ are you? Asking me to move for you”? You guessed it there where a bunch of those at the store yesterday. I find them rude and struggle with returning politeness despite their rudeness. My core instinct wants to scream at them you think you are the only person in the world? I don’t unless they state their stare out loud. You know the ones that act as if the world owes them and they owe nothing in return. This happened once I was ready to checkout. I went to the self-checkout and I always pay with check. There is a population of cashiers that feel as if no one should use a check and they are rather rude about taking checks. That was yesterday. I am standing there waiting for the cashier to acknowledge me. I stood quietly patiently waiting while she waited on customer after customer, ignoring me. Finally I said hey can I pay for my purchases. It was rewarded with a dirty look while she turned to help someone else. Then came the nasty comment about how she was getting around to me, I needed to be patient. The screen tells you exactly how long you have been waiting, it showed 7 minutes. I pointed this out to her and she started to argue with me stating that doesn’t represent how long you have been waiting it just says you are 7th in the queue. (At no time was there more than 3 people in self-service area). I started to point that out to her, and it was a “What do you know” attitude. Yep I lost my temper BIG TIME. Some would say I was entitled. I finally left telling I am sorry I am not enough of a certain heritage for you. Because that was exactly what it was discrimination because I looked or did not look enough of a certain heritage like all the other customers. At the first sign of a snarky attitude, I should have just left my purchases and walked out. They could have been bought elsewhere or at a later time. But I did not, I cried the whole way home. Not so much because I had behaved poorly, but because I started thinking damn this is going to be a hard holiday season shopping wise, it is not even Black Friday wondering how I am going to manage. Then I read this chapter in Psalms, and am reminded that each year, I manage the holiday shopping season a bit better. I manage because the One who created the World, is by my side. He is there beside me. I can do this with the help of the GREAT HOLY ONE. The Lord will see me through this stressful time. I might have days that are easier than others, but God will see me through this Season of Joy. I will focus that we are Thankful for what God has done. This season is started with the celebration of Thanks for survival. It ends with a celebration of the New Year. Of course there is the second most important celebration of all the celebration of the birth of the blessed savior. The most important celebration?- the Day he rose!! P.S. The only way I do Black Friday, is with a large group that knows I need to be buffered.
1 I waited patiently for the Lord; he turned to me and heard my cry. 2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit, out of the mud and mire; he set my feet on a rock and gave me a firm place to stand. 3 He put a new song in my mouth, a hymn of praise to our God. Many will see and fear the Lord and put their trust in him. 4 Blessed is the one who trusts in the Lord, who does not look to the proud, to those who turn aside to false gods. 5 Many, Lord my God, are the wonders you have done, the things you planned for us. None can compare with you; were I to speak and tell of your deeds, they would be too many to declare. 6 Sacrifice and offering you did not desire— but my ears you have opened—burnt offerings and sin offerings you did not require. 7 Then I said, “Here I am, I have come—it is written about me in the scroll. 8 I desire to do your will, my God; your law is within my heart.” 9 I proclaim your saving acts in the great assembly; I do not seal my lips, Lord, as you know.
10 I do not hide your righteousness in my heart; I speak of your faithfulness and your saving help. I do not conceal your love and your faithfulness from the great assembly. 11 Do not withhold your mercy from me, Lord; may your love and faithfulness always protect me. 12 For troubles without number surround me; my sins have overtaken me, and I cannot see. They are more than the hairs of my head, and my heart fails within me. 13 Be pleased to save me, Lord; come quickly, Lord, to help me. 14 May all who want to take my life be put to shame and confusion;
may all who desire my ruin be turned back in disgrace. 15 May those who say to me, “Aha! Aha!” be appalled at their own shame. 16 But may all who seek you rejoice and be glad in you; may those who long for your saving help always say, “The Lord is great!” 17 But as for me, I am poor and needy;
may the Lord think of me. You are my help and my deliverer; you are my God, do not delay.