Joseph is a Godly man, he took time t seek God on what to do about Mary. He did not respond right away.
focusing on God is not automatic work is involved.
YOU ARE SO VERY WORTHY. Celebrate His Birth with your whole heart, because that it what it means to Love the Lord your God with all your heart. It means that you do not have to listen to those lies. It means you have the power to trust God, it means that through the grace of Jesus you have overcome even death (Spiritual) There is still a physical death. and everything Satan is telling you is a LIE!.
This time of year the absence is felt greater. Especially if you are foolish enough to look around and see all those people laughing having fun. You wonder why not me? why isn't there someone with whom I can celebrate?